Eating Healthier

*this was typed last night*

I have been trying really hard lately to eat healthier. Now that I am back at work it makes it A LOT more easy to do so.
When I am not working I get bored, and what do I do when I am bored???....EAT
well at work I don't even get the chance to eat except on my lunch and breaks so if I make myself healthy foods, that is my only option.

By the time I get home and rest for a bit, then make and eat dinner its 9pm and there is no need nor time to snack on crap. I quite like it actually.

Today has been kinda snacky as we ended up buying some chips at Costco, but I did portion some out for myself instead of just sitting with the entire bag on my lap. Dinner was pretty good on the healthier front. It was basmati rice, breaded chicken legs (baked) and salad with light italian dressing, and a glass of milk.

I switched to basmati rice because of my PCOS. I am supposed to eat things that are part of the GI diet. I havent dont a good job sticking to it except the rice is one thing that I stayed with. It suggests eating brown or basmati rice instead of white, but I just CANT eat brown rice. It is absolutely disgusting. But I can eat this rice, and my husband prefers it to white so now its a permanent change.
Nikisha ♥

Disappointment

I really have a lot of disappointment in myself right now. I just cant find motivation STILL!
Right now, me and a few friends go for a walk every sunday, but that is pretty much it for me. I am not sure why I cant get my mind to agree with itself, and get my body moving a little more. *sigh*

I am now working and I seem tonot be able to find energy. I am used to not working, so then going in for 9 hours a day I just dont have the motivation to do anything past making dinner when I get home. I just need to get my act together I guess.
Nikisha ♥

Got Off My ASS!!

OK!!!
I finally got off my ass today and worked out!!!
I and so weak but I hope I can get my strength up again. I did the Wii Fit and burned 250 calories, mainly doing the yoga. I know its not a lot but its better than sitting my my ass like I have been.

Now I just need to make sure that I continue to do this because I am really glad that I did finally do it. Maybe I will do my Biggest Loser Wii game next.


Nikisha ♥

I am Lazy....and a horrible blogger.

I think its been forever and a day since I posted......well I havent had a very good reason at all really. I guess just slacking.
I just got back from my last real vacation for the summer, and I think it is time that I focus on this whole weight loss thing.
I think I need to type up a schedule for myself and start following it, because without it I seem to slack.
Went to the grocery store today and now have my healthy foods.
I am moving my wii downstairs to start getting active again.

I really need to just get off my fat ass and do something!!!!
Nikisha ♥

Not shaped like a box with boobs

So I haven't lost much, but I think that my weight is shifting a little. I have always said that my body shape was rectangle......not so much apple I guess because I have a long torso....but VERY rectangle.

I always wanted a waist.....or at least my hips to even be bigger, well now I have that!!

I was looking in the mirror today and was happy to see that I ACTUALLY had some form of a waist. Things look so much better on you when you are not shaped like a box with boobs. I always hates wearing things that are supposed to accentuate your waste and really it just pulls attention to your boxiness.

So now even though my body still sucks....I have something about it to be happy about and to work towards.

Nikisha ♥

So i definitely got my walk in today......me and the dog.

It was good.
I did it early enough so it wasn't too humid so it was nice.

My leg was a little sore but I pushed through it.

I think the morning is the best time for me to do it, after I eat breakfast. That way I don't put it off and "I'll do it later"

Because we ALL KNOW that "I'll do it later" really means, "I'm not gonna do it today"

Nikisha ♥

I am now back from my cruise and it was WONDERFUL!!! and very well needed.

I will say that the entire time I did NOT watch what foods I was eating. If I wanted it, I ate it. That means that I had dessert every night after dinner.

I can say that I never over did it. If I couldn't finish a meal, I didnt force it, I just pushed it aside.

Also I can say that I did not gain any weight while on the cruise :)

My DH on the other hand gained 10 lb (he still only weighs 145 though)

Since being home though (returned home on the 16th) I have already lost 4lb. I think the cruise was the shock to my body that I needed.

So now that I am back I guess that means it is back to eating better and following the GI Diet again, as well as start being active.

I will take my dog for a walk EVERY DAY (instead of putting him in the back yard)

I will do my Wii Fit at LEAST 3X per week

Nikisha ♥

Vacation

I am leaving for a cruise tomorrow....so this whole weight loss thing.....YA, it can wait ill I get back!!!

Caribbean HERE I COME!!!

Nikisha ♥

I think I like this GI diet a lot. It isnt hard and already I just feel better. I dont feel as gross or as bloated as I did before.

I did lose a couple pounds, but then we went to the in laws for 5 days which was very difficult. I was able to resist many things, but not every thing.

The walking has been difficult. I noticed after a few days of more activity that my leg (the one that was broken) started swelling where the incisions were. It began getting really painful, and very sensitive to the touch, so I decided to take it easy for a while because I don't want to injure myself again.

Once I get my house clean (which is a total disaster, and which I am taking a break from doing this second) my plan is to get back into doing some more activity. I am going to start with the Wii Fit, something that is not too strenuous on the leg and then work up to some more things. :)

Nikisha ♥

It's Been A While

So its been a while since I have updated.... so here it is.

I have been going to the doctors a handful of times in the last couple months for some feminine issues. Along with these I also had my blood tested for a bunch of stuff.

One was diabetes. My levels were 6.1mmol/L which is pre-diabetic. I had them tested again and my result was 5.1. This is still ok but my doctor now wants test me every year to keep an eye on it.

Also I was diagnosed with PCOS. Having PCOS can make it hard to lose weight and insulin resistance (which means trouble metabolizing sugar).

So because of this my doctor has suggested following a GI diet. So far it has been great!!! It reminds me a lot of the old Core program on weight watchers, but not as many restrictions. I don't have to count a think.....no points or calories! Definitely less stressful. I bought a book about it and it has helped, and has given me some recipes to start off with, because sometimes the hardest part is to get started.

I have also made sure that every day I go and take my dog out for at least 1 walk. Our walks for now are about 20 minutes. That is about all my leg can handle right now, and I have made my dog lazy, so he cant take much more either for now (we will work on that together).

Nikisha ♥

Chocolate Chip Cookies

Particularly these cookies........are EVIL!!!

The are SOOOOOO good they are evil.

I will choose these cookies over any other, and I have eaten too many of these this last week.

I have counted every single one, so I am being accountable, but they are so tempting (and there is another bag in the pantry)

Besides that I have been doing pretty good, tracking everything and making sure that my points are on track.

Tonight dinner was very yummy!!!

1 chicken breast

1 cup white rice

Mushroom soup sauce w extra mushrooms added

cooked carrots

1 cup milk

TOTAL: 13pts

Doing Well

What a difference planning my dinners have made to my eating. The last 2 days have been great! I think knowing what I am going to make for dinner ahead of time has actually made my eating during the day better.

I haven't been extra hungry or felt the need to snack on crap (except I did have some cookies last night but they were counted)

My only issue now that I have to work on is getting up at a decent time, so then I will actually eat lunch.

Today I did not have lunch which caused me to eat dinner at 6pm instead of 8pm, and this also means that I am sitting here with 15 points left. I am not going to try to make up those points today, because that seems like a waste to eat that many points in crap because I wont be super hungry later. Tomorrow I WILL make sure I have lunch, or at least some more snacks or fruit in the middle of the day to push my dinner later.

Yesterdays Dinner: BBQ steak, Caesar salad, baked potato (13pts)

Todays Dinner: Breaded, fried pork tenderloin chops with applesauce, steamed broccoli and cauliflower, sidekicks cheese pasta (14pts)

Nikisha ♥

So after my little pitty fest yesterday, I decided I was going to FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!

I have figured out what I am going to make for dinner for the next 8 days (including today), then I went to the grocery store and spent $130.00 on fruit, veggies and meat.

Now that I have a plan, I think I may do a lot better at this.

I even talked to my mom and she is going to come over every week and WI with me since she wants to lose weight too :)

Now I just have to plan my breakfasts and lunches

Nikisha ♥

Utter Blob ---- Yup that's me!

So how many times do I have to re-commit before I actually take myself seriously and do it??? Any guesses? any insight? anything will help me at this point.

I sit here feeling sorry for myself, feeling like an utter blob, eating complete garbage and I don't do anything about it.

I really need to find motivation but it is really hard.

This was so much easier when I was doing it with someone else. Maybe I can try to get my mom to recommit with me since she talks about needing to lose weight again.

I really have no excuse. I am not working so I am home all day every day. I can get off of my lazy ass and do something but I just don't. I no longer have any physical restrictions either (well there are some things I still can't do yet, but not because the doctor said I cant, just that my leg doesn't have full motion)

I just need someone to come here and kick me in the ass!

Any takers?

Nikisha ♥

Not on Speaking Terms

My new "friend" and I are not on speaking terms right now.

^^^See this?^^^See this?^^^

Told me that I am too fat for it to tell what % of me is fat!!!

F*CK!!!

Nikisha ♥

RIP My Friend

Now now....don't get worried or sad.

My Friend that has died is my Weight Watchers Scale.

This scale was my friend and has been very good to me for the last 5 years, even though I have not always been good to it.

To be honest, my dear friend was MURDERED!!

John my good husband was helping me clean, and moved my scale leaning it up against the wall & baseboard heater. Well today has been a cold day of -4 celcius (it was 20 last week) so John turned the heat on.

I asked him if anything was against the heater, but he never answered.

Ten minutes later we hear "POP!!!"

John went to check and lo and behold the battery in the scale had been overheated and exploded. There was battery juices everywhere.

I was sad.....mourned the death of my scale for about 5 minutes.....until I yelled

"YOU OWE ME A NEW ONE!!!"

Off to Walmart we went :)

This is my new friend:

This baby is the same price as my WW one, and it measures my body fat and hydration as well. I think I will love my new friend

Nikisha ♥

YUMMY!!!

Tonights dinner was SOOOOO good!

It was 16 points -- WHAT 16 POINTS?!?!?

yes 16 points....but it is ok because I get 34pts/day so 18 points for the rest of the day, plus the 5 activity points is WAY more than enough.

Also I can easily make this meal lower in points if I wanted to

This was stir fried beef with mushrooms and broccoli with an Indian Korma sauce on white rice, with 2 low fat Pilsbury crescents.

The sauce alone was 5pts for 1/2 cup. Next time I will buy the Blue Menu version and I can lower that to 2pts.

The crescents were 4.5pts and really they were not needed.

And I could always have less rice and add more veggies to make sure I have enough to satisfy me.

All in all it was absolutely DELICIOUS!!!

and for dessert I think I am going to have fat free vanilla ice cream with strawberries on top... Mmmmm :)

Nikisha ♥

Bob Kicked My ASS!!

So after putting it off for a couple days, I finally sucked it up and worked out.

Let me just say that I am beyond out of shape!!! The most out of shape I have ever been in my life.

I definitely struggled, while Bob Harper served me my ass on a platter.

I was going to to my Power Sculpt video and take it a little easy....then I thought to myself "Why on earth would I take it easy?? I need to lose some weight". So I decided to do the Cardio Max video. I am glad I did it now, but during it I thought I was crazy.

I am going to keep at it, and try EVERY DAY to do some sort of video.

I have 3 Biggest Loser videos, the Biggest Loser game for the Wii as well as Wii Fit. I am thinking for the "easier" days I will do the Wii fit, to keep myself active and moving, but not strain myself.

I am also able to ride my bike so I should start doing that soon.

What I REALLY want to do is my DDR, because it is fun and challenging and a great workout.

*sigh*

One day soon hopefully

Nikisha ♥

I didn't work out :(

I was just so absolutely sore from Niagara Falls that I could barely get out of bed or move around. Then after my physio I decided that I didn't want to over work my leg. I did however track my food!!! YAY ME!

Today I didnt work out either, but I did clean my house so that has to count for something right??? RIGHT?!??!?!

Anyways..... I cooked up some chicken and some steak pieces, weighed them out and froze them in pretty little 2 point packages. I think that will help me when I am looking for a quick meal. I can make a sandwich or wrap, or add the meat to a salad. I need to do this more often so I have less of an excuse for eating CRAP!!

Tomorrow I am DEFINITELY doing a video..... probably my Power Sculpt video as I think the cardio max may be too much right now...for both my leg and the fact that I have been pretty lazy for months.

Nikisha ♥

ps..... Smoothies made with fresh berries is A MILLION TIMES BETTER than frozen berries....just sayin'.

Back at it

So I have been kind of MIA for a while.....with good reason

John and I decided to goon a little vacay to Niagara Falls this week.

We had an AMAZING time!!! Lots of fun, walking and eating.

I did not track or watch my food the entire trip. I did however stop eating before I felt full. I didn't eat junk like chips, ice cream, candy etc, but just some really good dinners, like The Keg and a Brazilian Steakhouse.

Well now that I am home....and have gained some weight (EEEK!!) it is time to get back to it.

My plan is to start working out again, starting tomorrow morning -- my legs still need a rest as they are so sore from walking for 6 hours straight.

I CAN and WILL do this! I cant keep gaining weight.

Nikisha ♥

Going slowly.......

Things on the weight loss front are not going very well. Really its because my focus seems to be on other things.....slightly stressful things.

I am going out of town tomorrow for 5 days to Niagara Falls. This is going to be hard because we will be eating out for most of our meals. I am going to try hard to focus on choosing the right foods.

I am DEFINITELY going to start doing some activity on April 5th.....someone hold me to that!!!

I really need to get active as I really don't want to carry all of this weight around with me, especially everything around my middle section.

I haven't lost any weight since rejoining, and now that some of the stress is gone I think I can do it.

Nikisha ♥

Weekends

Weekends are gonna kill me. And not even for the reason that weekends kill most people.

My problem is that my sleeping gets really messed up on weekends and because of this, the small amounts I do eat are not that good for me. Even if I am within points, its not healthy to have like 1-2 meals a day.

Because I am not working I end up staying up late (which I am trying to work on). And by late I mean like 2am. During the week this is fine, because I get up by 10am and go about my day. I have breakfast by 11, lunch at 3 and dinner at 8.

Weekends I pick my husband up from work. So I go to sleep around 2-230, get up at about 530am, so really this isn't enough sleep, more like a nap. Then by the time I get back to sleep its 630-7. Because of this I don't get up sometimes till after 1pm, and then I don't eat till like 3pm because I don't feel rested.

Yesterday I didn't anything till 5pm which was toast with PB and J. Then for dinner at 10pm I had a Whopper and fries. I counted my points and I am fine....but really this is not a way to eat.

I am trying to get myself to go to sleep sooner but it is gonna take time. I go to bed at midnight and there are times that I still dont fall asleep for 2 hours. It's kinda frustrating really. I will keep at it but I have really messed up my body with my sleeping habits.

Nikisha ♥

I am finding this harder than the first time I joined WW. I think it is because the first time it was all new and kind of exciting, and you kinda wanted to prove yourself to others. I am committed to do this, it's just mentally more difficult.

Yesterday I found myself very hungry. The issue I think was that what I am used to eating, even when they are not the most horrible of foods, are still pretty high in points. I just have to gradually learn to have smaller portions, and possibly eat a little more often.

I also need to re-learn how to plan my meals. As of right now I have no idea what I am going to eat tomorrow, which isn't a good thing. This is what causes me to just eat garbage.

Tomorrow I plan to get some activity in. It has been GORGEOUS here in Eastern Ontario and I need to get outside. I am going to go for a walk. Tonight I get my MP3 player ready to go so I have no excuses!!!

"You have to stay in shape. My Grandmother, she started walking 5 miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is" -- Ellen Degeneres

Total Daily Points : 35

Day 1: 35DP + 0.5WP

Day 2: 35DP + 2.5WP

WP remaining: 32

Nikisha ♥

Weight Watchers

So I bit the bullet and joined Weight Watchers Online last night.

Because I was a member online before I was able to join without paying the membership dues, so it was a little easier on the wallet.

Today I have tracked everything I have eaten and so far I am doing pretty good. I get 35pts per day and so far I have used 18.5. My last blog I stated what I ate each day, but I don't think that I am going to do that this time. Really it's pretty dry information that people probably do not care about.

At the end of the day I will probably state how well I did for the day.....like how many points I ate for the day but that is about it.

Also I plan to share any low point yummy recipes I find :)

Now that the weather is nicer, I need to start making some plans for activity. I have had an extremely lazy winter so it is time. I think I will start with walks and move up to bike riding.

Guess this means I need to find my MP3 Player and load up some new music.

Nikisha ♥

It's gonna be hard

So today I decided to start making better decisions when it comes to my food choices....and you know I forgot how hard it is.

I KNOW that I didn't make good decisions but I acknowledged that throughout the day.

I am really thinking about joining Weight Watchers again.

My mom has asked me about it, but I said no because I don't really have the funds for it. I am starting to think that I actually do need to rejoin. It will cost me $50/month.

I don't know why I feel like I have to prove myself to others, but for some reason that is the fire under my ass that gets me going.

Nikisha ♥

WHY?

So why is it that I want to refocus and lose weight?

Few reasons.

1. John and I want to have a baby. Having a baby will be a lot easier when I weigh less and will be healthier for the baby.

2. I am finding it more difficult to do physical things (which I think is a combination of the stupid leg and the weight).

3. I cant afford to keep buying new clothes. Stores that sell nice clothes for plus size women like to charge $40/shirt and I can't afford that.

4. I went to the doctors and my A1C (3 month blood sugar levels) were slightly elevated. I have to go back for fasting blood work (tomorrow). This means that I could have diabetes. Not something that I want to hear. It sucks that I needed something like this to scare me back, but it has.

There are many many other smaller reasons, but these are the main ones.

Nikisha ♥

New Beginnings

My name is Nikisha and I am FAT!

Just as the title of my Blog states....It is time for me to cut the fat!!!!

It is really time for me to get my ass into gear and do something about this!

I have been fat pretty much my whole life, but I have been able to keep it fairly under control.

In 2005 I was at my heaviest at 274 and I joined weight watchers and got down to 222.

Well I continued life, and as I lives, the fat crept back on.

I was able to maintain my weight at about 240lb for the longest time...... then in Feb 2009 I broke my leg....badly (take a look here). Because of this I wasn't able to be very active, and was in a cast until December. In October, I became unemployed. These 2 things put together, along with my love of laziness has brought me to today.

Today I am at the heaviest I have ever been in my life -- 283lb

This is just not acceptable for me, and I need to change this. I have the resources to do so, so I just need to get off my ass, hunt for my motivation (because I know it is here somewhere) and get a move on.

This is my New Beginning!!