Going slowly.......

Things on the weight loss front are not going very well. Really its because my focus seems to be on other things.....slightly stressful things.

I am going out of town tomorrow for 5 days to Niagara Falls. This is going to be hard because we will be eating out for most of our meals. I am going to try hard to focus on choosing the right foods.

I am DEFINITELY going to start doing some activity on April 5th.....someone hold me to that!!!

I really need to get active as I really don't want to carry all of this weight around with me, especially everything around my middle section.

I haven't lost any weight since rejoining, and now that some of the stress is gone I think I can do it.

Nikisha ♥

Weekends

Weekends are gonna kill me. And not even for the reason that weekends kill most people.

My problem is that my sleeping gets really messed up on weekends and because of this, the small amounts I do eat are not that good for me. Even if I am within points, its not healthy to have like 1-2 meals a day.

Because I am not working I end up staying up late (which I am trying to work on). And by late I mean like 2am. During the week this is fine, because I get up by 10am and go about my day. I have breakfast by 11, lunch at 3 and dinner at 8.

Weekends I pick my husband up from work. So I go to sleep around 2-230, get up at about 530am, so really this isn't enough sleep, more like a nap. Then by the time I get back to sleep its 630-7. Because of this I don't get up sometimes till after 1pm, and then I don't eat till like 3pm because I don't feel rested.

Yesterday I didn't anything till 5pm which was toast with PB and J. Then for dinner at 10pm I had a Whopper and fries. I counted my points and I am fine....but really this is not a way to eat.

I am trying to get myself to go to sleep sooner but it is gonna take time. I go to bed at midnight and there are times that I still dont fall asleep for 2 hours. It's kinda frustrating really. I will keep at it but I have really messed up my body with my sleeping habits.

Nikisha ♥

I am finding this harder than the first time I joined WW. I think it is because the first time it was all new and kind of exciting, and you kinda wanted to prove yourself to others. I am committed to do this, it's just mentally more difficult.

Yesterday I found myself very hungry. The issue I think was that what I am used to eating, even when they are not the most horrible of foods, are still pretty high in points. I just have to gradually learn to have smaller portions, and possibly eat a little more often.

I also need to re-learn how to plan my meals. As of right now I have no idea what I am going to eat tomorrow, which isn't a good thing. This is what causes me to just eat garbage.

Tomorrow I plan to get some activity in. It has been GORGEOUS here in Eastern Ontario and I need to get outside. I am going to go for a walk. Tonight I get my MP3 player ready to go so I have no excuses!!!

"You have to stay in shape. My Grandmother, she started walking 5 miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is" -- Ellen Degeneres

Total Daily Points : 35

Day 1: 35DP + 0.5WP

Day 2: 35DP + 2.5WP

WP remaining: 32

Nikisha ♥

Weight Watchers

So I bit the bullet and joined Weight Watchers Online last night.

Because I was a member online before I was able to join without paying the membership dues, so it was a little easier on the wallet.

Today I have tracked everything I have eaten and so far I am doing pretty good. I get 35pts per day and so far I have used 18.5. My last blog I stated what I ate each day, but I don't think that I am going to do that this time. Really it's pretty dry information that people probably do not care about.

At the end of the day I will probably state how well I did for the day.....like how many points I ate for the day but that is about it.

Also I plan to share any low point yummy recipes I find :)

Now that the weather is nicer, I need to start making some plans for activity. I have had an extremely lazy winter so it is time. I think I will start with walks and move up to bike riding.

Guess this means I need to find my MP3 Player and load up some new music.

Nikisha ♥

It's gonna be hard

So today I decided to start making better decisions when it comes to my food choices....and you know I forgot how hard it is.

I KNOW that I didn't make good decisions but I acknowledged that throughout the day.

I am really thinking about joining Weight Watchers again.

My mom has asked me about it, but I said no because I don't really have the funds for it. I am starting to think that I actually do need to rejoin. It will cost me $50/month.

I don't know why I feel like I have to prove myself to others, but for some reason that is the fire under my ass that gets me going.

Nikisha ♥

WHY?

So why is it that I want to refocus and lose weight?

Few reasons.

1. John and I want to have a baby. Having a baby will be a lot easier when I weigh less and will be healthier for the baby.

2. I am finding it more difficult to do physical things (which I think is a combination of the stupid leg and the weight).

3. I cant afford to keep buying new clothes. Stores that sell nice clothes for plus size women like to charge $40/shirt and I can't afford that.

4. I went to the doctors and my A1C (3 month blood sugar levels) were slightly elevated. I have to go back for fasting blood work (tomorrow). This means that I could have diabetes. Not something that I want to hear. It sucks that I needed something like this to scare me back, but it has.

There are many many other smaller reasons, but these are the main ones.

Nikisha ♥

New Beginnings

My name is Nikisha and I am FAT!

Just as the title of my Blog states....It is time for me to cut the fat!!!!

It is really time for me to get my ass into gear and do something about this!

I have been fat pretty much my whole life, but I have been able to keep it fairly under control.

In 2005 I was at my heaviest at 274 and I joined weight watchers and got down to 222.

Well I continued life, and as I lives, the fat crept back on.

I was able to maintain my weight at about 240lb for the longest time...... then in Feb 2009 I broke my leg....badly (take a look here). Because of this I wasn't able to be very active, and was in a cast until December. In October, I became unemployed. These 2 things put together, along with my love of laziness has brought me to today.

Today I am at the heaviest I have ever been in my life -- 283lb

This is just not acceptable for me, and I need to change this. I have the resources to do so, so I just need to get off my ass, hunt for my motivation (because I know it is here somewhere) and get a move on.

This is my New Beginning!!